There is a very real reason why this blog has the name that it does. There is the life that we think we choose for ourselves and then there is the life that seems to choose us. And there are things that happen that we could not possibly make up. And this is one of those.
A week ago, I got a call from one of my paras….one of my former paras…saying that they could not find the switches and AAC devices. This is a very big deal since ALL of those students are nonverbal and all acces to any curriculum relies on switches and devices and such. I remembered packing them up but not exactly where I had put them. They said they would keep looking. 2 days ago, they called again, saying they still had no idea where they were. I made trek in and sure enough, the devices were in the storage closet where I left them. The kids were all there and some sort of seemed to recognize me. It was a bit weird being there everyone was okay, and I began the process of trying to help a rather shell shocked and overwhelmed teacher what there was there for the each student. This was not a new teacher, she is a veteran, but very new to this particular population. No one walks in knowing just what to do. And then the new speech teacher, who did look young and new, walked in and I began talking to her a bit about the kids and how speech had worked in the past. All in all, it was me simply slipping into the old familiar role. But after an hour, I was able to walk out and go home to wrestle with ideas on how to market myself better.
The next afternoon, the call came. I finally got an offer for a job. Not just an offer, but it would be fair to say that I was cajoled and woo’ed. I don’t know if “beg” would be too strong of a word or not. But I was asked to come in. Real soon. And so, tomorrow is my first day of work in my new job! Actually it is only a temporary longterm sub job. But it is a job, right? Got my foot in the door!
Thing is….this is the same exact door I walked out of just 3 months ago. Yes, meet the new boss! Same as the old boss! I have my old job back. It would not be an understatement for me to say I have VERY mixed feelings about this. I left to find something else. And I am still searching. Suffice it to say that God obviously thinks I have something yet to discover in this particular spot, with these particular students. It looks like we will be together again, for good or ill. So let’s see what we can do.
The odds are the same as last year…in fact the job is even more daunting if that is even even possible, than when I left. So, I’m rolling up the sleeves and working on getting psyched to go in show ’em how it’s done.